Subject: First experiences?
Content: Did you have a first formative experience that defined your BDSM/fetish nature? It seems that some people have one or more very clear experiences while others don't. If you're in the first category, what was your formative experience? Mine was when I was quite young growing up in a small village in England. One day when I was playing in the fields near my home I found two older girls -- they were probably around 13 or 14 but for me they looked huge -- playing doctor behind a hedge. They had both taken off their knickers (panties) and were taking turns "examining" each other. I managed to watch for a couple of minutes before they saw me and I found it incredibly exciting, but I couldn't have said why then because I had no idea what sexual feelings were. Then they noticed me and managed to catch me before I could run away. I know now that they were scared that I would tell on them. They held me down and slapped me and told me that they would do much worse if I told anyone. Then they pulled down my pants and laughed at my tiny little wiener and I guess they figured that if they made me join in they could keep me from telling anything because they would also be able to tell on me. First I had to smell both of them between their legs and kiss them there and their assholes. At first I was afraid but they slapped me even harder until I did it. Then the older one went and pissed and shit in the bushes and came back and they made me lick her clean. I felt excited and disgusted at the same time and they found it incredibly funny, they were laughing so hard they couldn't stop. Then they told me to go and that if I told anyone they'd tell how I was an asshole licker and shit eater and I'd get expelled from the school. That was basically it. It never happened again and they never mentioned it or said anything when I saw them at school, although they sometimes looked at me strangely. Looking back now they were probably still afraid that I would tell on them. Ever since then I've found dominant women very exciting. I don't think it was just the experience though -- if I hadn't had the inclination already in me I would have responded differently to the event and things would have happened differently.
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